Dave and I talked yesterday... without going into details we "decided" we shouldn't see each other anymore since we do not have the same end goal in mind. I wanted to move in together soon, marry him, and MAYBE have kids. Dave does not want that (be it with me or someone else I don't know). Apparently I have to pay for his ex's being complete bitches.
All I do know is that I am completely devastated and heartbroken. Yes, those who know me will say "Well didn't you feel like that with so and so or so and so." I probably did. I've loved everyone of my boyfriends in different ways. But Dave was different.
Honestly, I can not say how sick I am of hearing the cliches:
- Everything will be fine.
- You'll get over it.
- It just takes time.
- Better you know now.
- You don't want to be with someone like that do you?
- You deserve better.
Unfortunately NONE of these makes me feel any better. I can't eat, I couldn't sleep last night... nothing makes me feel better.
Try imagining the love of your life, the one you truly saw yourself being with AND being happy (most importantly) to be ripped out from under you. And not to mention very rudely - completely out of character for Dave.
I'm confused, I'm hurt, I'm angry, and I'm very very sad.
I just wish it could always be like it was in the beginning. Infatuated with each other. Unrealistically happy and in love.
2 comments:
Michele....you are right, all the cliches in the world will not make you feel any better. Just know this...I always have your back, sister...love you.....DP for LIFE!
if you wanna get away from the Bay for a little while, come up and spend some time w/ Mandy & me in Auburn. (guest room with a queen size bed!) Tim
I'm sorry sweetie, don't worry I won't say anything cliche, I just may to try and feed you!
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